memories; i love.

2006-03-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

people, i have moved! (:

replies!

2006-03-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

replies!

sheesh, i think that i haven't replied in such a long time that the tags have bursted out of the screen. sorry to the earlier tags, i can't reply! |:

rw: HELLO! (:

belle: yay. i certainly enjoyed OAC (: takecare too. and i miss camp too! thanks for sentry that night (: it was the best!

Staf(:: haha. i AM funny (: thankyou! mwahah. you survived. that's all that matters. anyway i already knew you would. staf's tough, isn't she? (:

Staf(:: hehheh. now you're going to think i'm all freaky, eh? mwahahahah. nahh, i don't have such powers to know. and wait - before i answer your question. i can't believe you went to scrutinise and check out the time even! |: sheesh. okay, now i can answer. i know cause... CELESTE TOLD ME! hah.

yourROYAL-PROness: we are so pro, no one can ever beat us (: whee. i sound like 3P's cheer now |: hehheh.

saint suuz: HELLO fellow SURVIVOR! (: what happened to you? - kicked out of the show? mwahah. so lame.

kathleen: i have updated (: yes! yes! yes! i know who thinks you're cute. whee (:

weishan: my dear, i have updated (:

jessica: yay (: 3A my beloved class! mwahah. and you STONE! (at times..)

tiffy: yes! now you can go around singing destiny's child survivor without a care in the world!! heh - i know you wouldn't do that (:

sunm: haha. no big. i'm quite surprised they LAUGHED actually. so great job, gave them something to laugh about. not good to be too serious, eh? (:

germaine: sheesh, how do you know 3A loves us? haha. must be mujia (:

shermaine: HI (: am i supposed to say LEADER SHERMAINE? okay, no. heh. and yes! silent girl (: you're an EX-silent girl. still counted. yay. takecare (:

mujia: thankyousomuch (: -takes a bow

euun-: yeah, i was just thinking about that. someday you and i shall be lame once more...

dajie: haha. no problem (: calling that person "eee person" is so funny. haha!

CEL: i think you're slow. i tagged almost the same thing for everyone. okay, you want a personalised one? i will tag one for you (: don't get so ji dong.

royal PROness: hi your royal PROness RAHH! WE GET TONGUE-TIED, WE CAN'T SPEAK UP (:

royal PROness: i know! that beep thingy is so annoying |:

kaiyin: OOPS |: OOPS |: this is SO maluating. sorry i forgot |: but you're still alive anyhow. that one i won't be mistaken (: i mean, obviously. haha.

OAC

2006-03-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

i shall hereby declare that i'm the slowest person to post about OAC. but ack,
OAC 2006 ROCKS (:

i was attached to A2! yeah man. and i still am. you know, attached to A2. mwahah.
no wonder during the camp all the instructors had boyfriends! hehe (: okay, lame.

A2 rocks my smelly camp socks (:
i don't care even if 3A didn't get the BEST CLASS AWARD. they're still the best to sunmeng and i.
A2, still rmb sit-on-me? i will never ever forget that game. cause you guys rocked. we broke the record. but that isn't all that matters. what's better is the perseverance i saw through that game. such spirit and determination came forth. it was practically overwhelming. i must comment on yara, for inspiring such immense strength in each and every one of them. rmb what i told you all about mental strength. that's exactly what you guys tapped on. and that's why you won. nothing can beat such unity, not even the fiercest pushes that the leaders and instructors gave you. that was YOUR moment of glory. so treasure it well (:

A2, i know everyone else is like writing what happened from day one to day six. haha. i'm too lazy to do that (: but overall, you were impressive. like life itself, there were ups and downs during camp. but that's what it's all about. i know there were conflicts and misunderstandings, i'm sorry if you all took it too hard or you felt it came down too harsh. but take things in your stride. now that camp's over, i hope you won't blame those who have wronged you. don't bear grudges, yah? (: people make mistakes. even those with authority. you have to forgive. so everyone will end up happy (:

A2, i also want to say sorry about my motion sickness. i couldn't be there to see you all go down the zipline or climb the rockwall. that would've been fun because i personally find the zipline most exciting. i wanted to be there when you all jumped off; to encourage and support you. but i was in the first aid base ): i also wasn't there for expressions. i wanted to see your creativity, considering the fact that you're an ART class! but i missed the chance. sheesh. it's okay. i will probably get to see some of your artwork around school someday anyway (:

A2, sorry for scolding you excessively at times, or for scolding you unreasonably. i hope you won't hold it against sunmeng and i. we're humans afterall (:

special thanks to
yara and syahidah, for always taking initiative
lifen, jessica and taina, for being so enthusiastic
yati, for sharing your np skills during analyse and construct (:
visha, for persevering to the end
aini, for being so brave always
and the rest of 3A, for being the best attached class ever!

i love you all <3

injured.

2006-02-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

i've been injured for quite some time now.
so i decided to forget about my injury and start training again.
i was fully aware of the consequences, though.
and i didn't make it through the whole of training.
sigh.

now my knee feels worse than before.
whatever man.
i'm not going to care.

i need to run for threeO and for peecees.
i don't care even if my knee breaks or something.
i can't let them down, though i will in the end anyway.
this year won't be my best. in fact, when will it ever be?
maybe never. i'm not even cut out for this anyway.
i trust mr tay's professional judgement and his "coach's eye",
but i'm not really seeing any results.

maybe it's just me.

new car (:

2006-02-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

last tuesday, my dad brought us to get our new car (:
haha. it's almost the same model, just a few minor changes here and there.
probably it's cause the COE prices are low or something. hehheh.

so anyhow. we were somewhere at alexandra road, where the hyundai showroom is.
then we went to IKEA for dinner. and while we were there, i went to the washroom to wash my hands. and there i "met" this elderly lady. i was rather surprised she actually spoke english. heh. anyway.. she was washing her hands too. then she smiled and i smiled back! haha (: okay, this is getting spastic. but it's not the main part yet.

so i thought that was that, you know, just smiling.
but she opened her mouth to ask me "what time do you close here?"
and i was shocked. like huh? and she asked me is it at 9 or something. and i seriously don't know so i said "i don't know". you know what that was all about? apparently, i got mistaken as an IKEA staff |: great job. i mean, just cause i was in school uniform doesn't mean i'm from IKEA! it's a uniform but not the staff's uniform! sheesh. haha. that's like one of the most ridiculous things ever. hehheh.

come to think of it, cedar's uniform doesn't look like the IKEA staff uniform one bit. to put them together is like so. uh! |:

replies!

2006-02-28T22:01:00.000+08:00

replies!

mechanic RAHH: thankyou (: i rock the world but you rock the universe! whee`

MU REN((:: eee! (: and yes, we're your FU RENS!

PAIL: pail, i miss you, me, us, together.

CEL: YO! (: mwahah. whey! what do you mean by that.. of course i update. mwahah. just that sometimes i don't have the time to (: and what's what supposed to mean?

stepdaughter: thankyou (:

jessica: you're not smart.. haha. it's relatively effortless to find someone's blog. all those links! and just shut up will you? (: there's only a certain amount of tolerance and that's it.

sharron: it's NOT a "yellow thing thing"! haha. it's YELLOW all the same. someday you'll get me one that's yellow and nice in your eyes, eh? (:

mechanicRAHH: thankyou (: you takecare too.

rahh-RAHH

2006-02-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

RAHH and i are the best (:

we're mechanics.
cause we screw things up.
yay.

we're the best.
we smile when we are stressed.
1, 2, 3 JIAYOU!!

speak malay! - "sheesh la."

and together with pc..
speak jap! - "eee" (:
mu gou, xiao gou and xiao gou zi!
mwahah.
plus mu ren! whee.

we're the rahh-RAHH prefects (:
we rock chinese class.

wanping, you rock (:

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2006-02-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

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sharon: no. haha. i got it from my brain. it's super obvious actually. no tricks to it.

sharon: mwahah. i've seen you before (: you're not that mysterious, you know.

wanping: yes we do! (: especially screwing things! yay.

wanping: precisely! we were laughing our heads off (: and you forgot mu ren! haha.

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2006-02-23T19:25:00.000+08:00

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sharon: haha, okay. say 'hi' if you want to (:

atHaliE-: really. wow. okay. ROSYTH REUNION. dang, i should've been there. hehheh.

sharon: i know you're from 1i cause i just know. mwahah. i'm clever. and i'm your senior so i have ways to find out.

dajie: i am fine thank you (: takecare too, dajie! love.

dajie: haha. yah, that guy. okay, someday i'll tell you. maybe next thursday @ our appt! (:

dajie: my room? i bet it's 1 thousand times smaller than yours. ah well. that's why it's cosy, eh? thanks for sunday 19 feb too. you made my day! <3

stepdaughter: forget about what he said?! haha. i should trust myself eh (:

sharron: i haven't been to your blog in a long time too! will go tag after i finish my replies (: hehheh. it's not because you haven't been here for a long time that's why my skin changed and you don't even know. it's just that recently i've been changing. haha. you're not that outdated (:

sharron: haha. black backgrounds are always the best (: cause you can use any colour on it except black. mwahah - that's kind of obvious, eh? yes, i will bounce all the way. but i don't want to participate in the bouncy tiger race for sports day! so not fun. it's strange and malu-ating to bounce in front of the whole school! sheesh |: haha.

stepdaughter: hah! and BELIEVE is spelt with an I. mwahah.

joy: hi! (:

eqnTWO: thankyou so much dearest (: love you!

peichun: oh my goodness! you TAGGED with your NAME. yay. haha. i'm over-reacting. anyhow. it reminds me of the nutty professor: "YES, I CAN!" - but that was because he resolved to become skinny. which i most certainly won't.

wanping: yes! GLUE! (: RAHH, you rock. so let's stick together, let's just do.

wanping: sheesh. oral's OVER by the time i reply this tag. stupid shit. tell me it was bad, just tell it to my face. face it - we're mechanics! (:

yusin: don't come to console me! (: i know you're stressed too. yes, FAITH.

PAIL: pull with what? our arms? your arm is like injured now.

PAIL: i know. and it's the same for me. there's so much to say; i'm just not going to post about it cause i don't want the world to know..

today

2006-02-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

today i had to talk to mr chia during reading.
it was strange.
i'm not sure if he noticed my eyes were turning red.
probably that's cause everytime i'm nervous,
my tear glands or whatever they are called are just ready to bawl at the slightest thing.
even if that isn't the case,
the topics mentioned were rather dear.

maybe it's just cause i don't have a habit of
expressing my problems to teachers.
it's not so much whether they are approachable or not.
it's just not how it should be.
well, there are exceptions.
maybe one day i'll open up.
we'll see.

i can't exactly believe he said i'm doing well in sec three.
reality check, NOT.

everything's just falling apart;

sorry

2006-02-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry dajie.
even so, i'm glad you know why this is happening.
He has a plan for everything.
just be patient.
wait and see, yah? (:

i'll pray for you, that you'll make it into either nj or tj.
jiayou! (:

anyway, we had fun today, eh? and you promised yourself not to think about it already.
so yay.
actually you're right.
~~she may not even appreciate it~~.
but so what.
we don't do this just for that.
i guess she needs space.
okay, she'll get it (: we have to be tolerant.

now vicky thinks i'm a coolie snail.
haha, NAIL BALM.
go to THE BODY SHOP. that's where my mom got it.

o level results!

2006-02-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

YAY (:

dajie will be coming back to school tmr! whee.
since i'm helping with the distribution of O level result slips + some brochures from the various JCs and polytechnics, i 'specially requested' to take 4N. yay (:

can't wait to see her tmr.
she's excited too! (:
xiaomeiilovesdajie

today

2006-02-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

sigh,
chemistry and A maths.
nice.

okay, shall not think about that.
there are better things to worry over.
like that note. haha - ulrica, zaferin, peichun and sarah are the only ones who know about it (: it's.. utterly strange.

it's nice having juniors.
i have one advice though:
just don't overdo it (:
yay. the world would be a perfect place.

it's not my fault. i'm sorry.
maybe it's just you or something.
but i'm really irritated. i think mrs ong is right. students at sec three are like the most unhappy. haha. no wonder the survey results are always lowest in this year.
maybe it's true.
it's so obvious everyone's that sensitive these days.
SIGH.

yay, tests are over for this week (:
SMILE!
~~sure~~

replies!

2006-02-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

replies!

sharon: really. when did you talk to me? hm. that day in the morning while 1I was walking off to the courtyard is it? (:

today

2006-02-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

today was kind of.. stupid.

i'm saddened by the fact that i didn't get to participate in the auditions with threeO! ): it was going to be our turn next but i was whisked off to training. and the best part about it is that i ~~lost~~ my badge due to all that running and panicking. grahhs-

after training - though i didn't do much because i'm still in the "injury group" - i was dead beat. and i think i stinked. but i didn't change into my school uniform cause my badge was missing ): sigh. can things be any more coincidental. stupid. so anyhow. i was at the bus stop waiting for 156 cause training was at bishan stadium today. i was practically leaning against a pole and stoning. then all of a sudden i heard this voice that was like talking so i thought someone was on the phone. strangely the voice felt so close and i could 'sense' someone was standing right next to me. then the person said xiao jie again and it was then that i realised he was calling me. haha. WOLS.

it was so stupid cause when i looked up it was this secondary school boy (from which school, i will not reveal) and he pointed to his friend saying his friend wants my number. i was so tired i could not react. so i just dao-ed them and got back to whatever i was doing before - stoning. it was so lame. sheesh.

like for their information, i don't entertain freaks. oh for goodness' sake. and i would've appreciated it much much more if he conversed in english! like what were they thinking. please.

it was a really bad day. sigh.
tmr there's belay school. we're ABSEILING.
and there's a MT common test.

ACK-

replies!

2006-02-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

replies:

sharon: huh? sec ones is it? sheesh, it isn't the first comment from my juniors that i am dao. heh. i think it's really mainly due to the fact that i didn't get to interact with the sec ones that much during orientation. that's usually the time when you really get closer to your seniors cause you're new to the school anyway! and we pupil leaders are here to guide you through your first few days in cedar (: whee. sorry if i appear cold. probably it's cause i don't know most of the sec ones. i like smiling.. quite a lot, cause i think a smile says a thousand words! (: but i personally think it's totally bizzare if i walk around the school smiling my head off. heh. don't you? (: but i'll try to be warmer. haha.

CEL: okay! (:

pail: "it's nice but not me." thanks, huh. i thought recently we already sat down tgt and something. rmb that time in the PR? (: yep. haha, fine - we can have more snailpail times if you want. just got to make time for it! it's a joint effort, you know. hehheh.

cheerup: woah, cool name. haha. it's like cheerup says cheerup (: thanks anyway!

the LINE

2006-02-04T11:47:00.000+08:00

oh, i spy A WALL.

and xinying, i'm really terribly sorry about yesterday ): i seriously haven't heard of that "reach the tar" phrase. if you ever get in trouble, say it's my fault, yah?

fake.

oh.

2006-02-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

mr yau is so nice. haha. especially yesterday when he was in an extra good mood (:

today i was walking around looking like an elephant. grahhs. cause my inner thighs are aching so badly ever since gym that day. and my stupid KNEE is giving me problems. i hate being in the "injury group". sheesh. when will this end.

oh, talking about pain in the knees. sharron and i are the best! (: we have RHEUMATISM. whee` who has rheumatism at this age? mwaha.

next week i have 5 tests. just great.

replies!

2006-02-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

replies!

dhilshad: hehheh. i think you will look really cute in braces (: it will give you a fresh look. haha. i'm okay (: thanks. you takecare too!

equation 2!: okay, okay (: someday the four of us will go recess together, yah? haha, we sound so much like primary school kids! whee.

kun-: hehheh (: i'm good okay! except for my homework.. heh.

germaine: haha. you click so many times (: okay, i will link you!

atHaliE-: ahha! that's where you're clever (: actually i have something to post almost everyday.. but i just can't find the time to. sad ):

PAIL: please!

dajie: hey dajie! (: takecare too! sigh. now that you're not in cedar i miss you so much. besides i haven't seen you back in school yet. at least i saw weisan, janica and some of the other sec 4s (: come back soon again when you have the time, yah? jiayou in sajc! xiaomeiilovesdajie (:

replies!

2006-01-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

replies:

joyy: HEY. haha. this tag is really old. mwhah. link me, and i don't even know your link! |:

jialing: i am not abusive, you stupid woman. haha. and happy new year? that's a bit too late for me to reply eh. it's already 21 days into the NEW year (:

anabella: thanks anyway (:

PAIL: dearest pail! (: <3

yusin: it's strange to say my daughter's mom when you are she is also your daughter... hm. it's confusing! haha.

deborah: that's slow, debo (: mwahah - rhymes! whee`

zaf: too bad, it already leaked out. though i don't know how. you know, arica already knew about it even before i told her. sheesh. things get around fast eh?

PAIL: it's a "secret" you BALUKU head! (:

grace: my dear (: yep, thanks for all the effort put into the booklet! not as easy as we thought.. eh? (: mwahah. love you! <3

SHARRON: okay, haha. won't complain (:

SHARRON: yah right la (: my hands are QUICKER! hehheh (: highest level of daoness.

Cindy: haha. ~~like i'm running away?!~~

PAIL: talking about going to find you.. you said one day equation 1, 3 and 4 will have recess together. but look - for you recess is with conhwa and me with sharron and wanping! ): mwahah. some day, we'll have a date.

kun-: you want to be killed is it?! haha. now got your "bodyguard-cum-spy" in school.. lurking around in dark corners and keeping a close watch on me (and i really mean close). how can i possibly? (: hehheh.

jaime.: whee` september babies rock! (: and so does 911.

RAHH: hey RAHH! (: sorry the first time i was so slow when you said 'hi' in school that morning (: haha. stupid. oh, and talking about 'stupid' reminds me of mr yau's lesson when we were supposed to scratch each others' faces all cause of that 30degrees! (:

Stafani~: hey! uh.. my english corrections..? hehheh. not yet |: still don't know the corrections! how? i will link you (:

done! (:

history newspaper article ):

2006-01-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

history newspaper articles ):

embarrassment

2006-01-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

today was one of the most embarrassing days in school.
haha. so much for ACTING during english lesson! - that was embarrassing enough too (: oh my gosh that MIFFY bag! (: mwaha. but anyway. back to the NON-ACTING part.

i just totally embarrassed myself in front of all the sec one juniors la. haha (: walking the wrong way down stage and all that! whee.

imagine a SNAIL + a PAIL running and jumping up and down the steps of the stage like stupid idiots! (: hm. then again, it isn't that hard to imgaine (: ask those who were present in the MPH. it was exactly what happened. haha. so stupid.

oh my goodness, this is just great. miss poon isn't going to give us any more advice. and i'll be stuck with training every single day except for tuesday for the rest of my sec 3 life.. at least i think so. but anyhow. my legs are going to BREAK. oh man, i still feel so guilty for not rubbing down ): no wonder my thighs ache like mad. it's the consequences i have to bear. sigh.

other than that.. today's training was cool. haha. the thought of actually being in the same group as those running 400m and not 100/200m is pretty scary. but surprisingly I MADE IT. and that's the most important part. today is my first time ever running 500m. it seemed freaky, but oh my gosh - when you start running, it's so much better than 300m! (: whee. it's the technique i guess. cause one is like you can feel the pace but the other is a sprint. maybe i should consider taking up middle d (: oh, and i actually did a PB for 500m. whee`

alright then. i spoke so much today. i crap. i still can't stand the fact that i was so stupid today. okay, forget it. that was just PLAIN RANDOM (:

screwed

2006-01-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

today was one of the most screwed days.
it wasn't right at all. i'm pissed off with myself for screwing things up.
oh my gosh. running around like a stupid idiot. grahhs.

oh, and vicky, zaf, swen & debo...
if you girls EVER say anything, you're DEAD.
shh. it's a secret! (: just between the 5 of us!
mwaha.

):

2005-12-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

it was so cold.
grahhs-

there she goes again.
why does she have to keep doing it.
it's pissifying.

(:

2005-12-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

friendship is the finest balm for the pangs of despised love

braces!

2005-12-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

everyone's either talking about my braces or tagging my blog about it (:
is it that happening?

haha.
anyway. sarah's going to get her's in BLACK. and that's in february (:
any suggestions on what i should have when feb comes?
our colours must compliment each other! (:

a thorn

2005-12-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

how is it possible that something can harm yet cure both at the same time?

she's like a thorn in the flesh
yet a basketful of joy.

those words we didn't say;
those songs we forgot to play

braces!

2005-12-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

BRACE yourselves.

they aren't exactly the most pleasant things in the world.
okay, they AREN'T.
they are utterly foul... like a billion metal pieces running through your mouth and over your teeth.
grahhs-

at least i got them in the christmas colours (: haha.

oh, who am i kidding?

bad

2005-12-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

cheating yourself is bad.

oh wow.
there i go again.

rejoice! because elyssa's been cheated. and by the most unlikely person on earth.

me.

sigh

2005-12-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

sigh.

can it get any better.

stop all the world now;

(:

2005-11-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

riding in a car that goes at 120km/h is like
WHOOOOSH! (:

man, i wanna go again!
it's literally driving me crazy!

ltc's over

2005-11-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

lalala.
so what if ltc's over?

DELTA still lives on.

and so does all our memories..
the times we shared.

ah well.
i sound cold.
cause it's not like i'm in the mood right now.
and probably i've never been good at expressing myself.
sorry.

replies!

2005-11-15T17:47:00.000+08:00

replies:

chicken little: okay, i won't think of that so much (: though it still kinda bothers me. but still. here's my SMILE (:

pail: man! sometimes i really wonder what this is all about. our friendship is made based on some funny basis (: haha. so much for consoling me, eh? thankfully i don't cry that much. i want my eyeballs! (:

aTHaliE-: phy chem pure geog ss/hist

-jaime: yeah! that's the spirit! (: NUMA!

chicken little: FEAR NOT FEAR NOT FEAR NOT FEAR NOT FEAR NOT FEAR NOT! I MEAN IT TOO OKAY! (:

agnes: okay, will relink you! (: sheesh. even you know? so paiseh ):

pail: thanks (:

DINOsaur: hey (: i know you all won't blame me. probably it's just me blaming myself. ah wells. i'll be okay. no, i already am (: jiayou too. don't get too stressed over the flag!

pail: thanks pail (: but you know, i can't be a rose. i'm a SNAIL (: unless you want to change roles? then you can be the rose. but no, that's too dangerous. know why? cause i may just EAT you (: our current roles are the BEST. trust me. neither of us wants to get hurt. hehheh. crap.

crazy: precisely! you're finally getting it. i'm sorry, but if you want to quit, so be it. you're indispensable anyway (:

TEN

2005-11-15T07:36:00.000+08:00

and then there were ten;
the TEN brave souls.

the ten who were tried & tested
but ceased to fall,
the ten who are willing to rise up to any challenge.

the TEN who, together, standing tall with their heads held high,
can proudly call themselves
DELTA.

failure

2005-11-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

i was tested.
and i failed.

so i guess i broke down yesterday.
something's gotta give.

but i guess that doesn't matter.
what matters most is being able to pick myself up.

thank you ACs for your concern (:

):

2005-11-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

the engine just stops running...
it won't budge.

and it is the same with I.

soon i'll just break down.
blarhs, all the stress.

tmr's the auditions.
grahhs-
~~DELTA~~ ~~must get in!~~

replies!

2005-11-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

replies

kaiyin: lalala. i never expected YOU to tag (: thanks so very much. happy holidays too!

chicken little: yeah! NUMA NUMA EH (: whee.

arica: okay. i will link (: and i will blog. but that depends. only if i have something to blog about! hehheh. yah, yah, i love you. HAH (:

-jaime: haha (: will try to relax. don't worry! you're now in the stress zone too, okay!

chicken little: oh well. guess it worked out in the end.. almost though. 'cause it's not over yet. heh. but still, you ARE in the stress zone! (: but that's okay. join us. don't stress!

charis: aiyah, even YOU are telling me to relax? okay (:

zaf: yes! we are ALL happy (: yay.

PAIL!: oh dear, you thought i am a PIG?! please, pail. get your facts right (: hehheh. i can't use the computer these days. so yah, can't update. you think i can use whenever i want!

-jaime: aiyah, don't be bored (: be STRESSED. haha. kidding.

TRAITOR: thanks so very much! (:

saint: yay! (: thanks so very much. haha. oh yah, our date (: hehe. sometime. in december? november is packed ):

zl: there's nothing wrong with idling! you need a LIFE. please.

anabella: miss you too! (: at least today saw you in school for field trip.. phew, those goats sure stink!

pail: yeah! - 5P rules (:

deltanites!

2005-11-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

today was tiring.

UGH-

it was only us.
gahh.
what crap.
call us a team!

i'm not gonna go all stereotypical and start screaming 'DELTA ROCKS!' at the top of my lungs. it'll only do my voice no good.

all i can say is,
we're different.

we may not always be the best group;
but i dare say we've tried.
and to me,
that's good enough.

terrorist!/COP blog

2005-10-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

whee!

the terrorist! cum CITIZENSofpeace blog! (:

click here

lalala.

kills;

my photos!

2005-10-28T12:42:00.000+08:00

hey 2P people (:

if you're reading this,
please rmb to send me the photos that i'm in (:
haha.
most importantly, the CLASS photos!

thanks so very much (:

*love*

amazing?

2005-10-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

i think it's so cool when your past friends manage to track you down.
like my primary one friend.

he found me on friendster - how, i'll never know.
hah (:

it's nice,
at least he still remembers.
i'm sorry to say i almost don't at all.

but looking at my past class photos do bring back memories.
some pleasant;
some not.
even so.

):

2005-10-27T19:58:00.000+08:00

today was really sad.

sigh,
we all cried ):

no matter how unprepared she is,
it still sounds professional.
thought-provoking;
inspirational.

we all love miss leong (:
i'll never forget the durian concept.

miss leong

2005-10-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

sigh.

i finally realised the importance of not taking things for granted.
she's going.
that's sad.

i think tmr i will cry.
sigh.

reminds me of literature.
"roll of thunder, hear my cry"
cassie took T.J. for granted! then at the end of the story she finally felt for T.J. and understood the discrimination of the blacks and blah blah.
main thing is, she had thought T.J. would always be there, a part of her life, like the mud and the rain...

hehheh,
let's not get into lit, yah? (:

the song for miss leong totally rocks.

thanks so very much,
miss leong (:
been a great principal.

you'll always be a part of us - a part of CEDAR! (:

situational test! (:

2005-10-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

today totally rocked.
situational test.
so FUN!
even though after acting for so many billion times, it kinda got sian after a while.
but still! (:

it was so fun...
for once! - the PCs + PSLs were actually given permission to act pai.
so yep, off we were.
acting PAI.

it was all the frenzy of tucking out shirts, folding skirts, unbuttoning first buttons, pulling down ties... you name it! (:

harhar.
just to name a few pai queen candidates in the cukoo station:
- shaza!
- zhenluan!
- chow yi ling!

woots! (:
CUKOO station is the BEST!

yay.
shaza and her bungee jumping.
zhenluan and her "what time is morning duty?" & "what is rule no. 1 in the handbook?".
chow yi ling and her broken chocolate wafer.
all so lame.

ah well,
i had my own share of FUN too.
sometimes guai,
sometimes pai.
oh, those wasabi nuts!

but after it all,
it really makes you wonder.
"what's so good about acting pai?"
i seriously don't know.
there's nothing to it.
what do i gain?
popularity?

but then again.
it's only because of these pai cedarians that make our job worth it!
it's because of them that we are required.

maybe that's really why PCs were first appointed -
pai people

tired

2005-10-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.

but still,
i'm glad i made it this far.

really thought that some time within the week i would've just collapsed.
and everything would be ~~gone~~.

thankfully not.

but i should've known.
i should've trusted myself more.
i'm strong.
i can do it.

physically, i may not be on par.
but mentally, i'm still holding on..

one more day.
jiayou.

ping siew + vicky (:

2005-10-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

ping siew + vicky! (:

whee.

today we forced them to take a photo.
so cute.

vicky is so short la (:
hehheh.

and oh! that marvellous shoulder! (:
YAY.

vicky's never gonna wash that shirt.
~~never~~.

well, at least she hopes so.
but mom'll always win.
so,
NO.
down the washing machine it goes...
almost like a part of ping siew herself.

but ah well,
all good things come to an end.
EXCEPT if you have a camera!
whee.
no wonder they always say "capture your memories" and blah.
now it's true! (:

nice little crystal - our phtographer (:
plus photographer-attached - valerie (:
lalala.
thanks!

don't touch that shoulder!

ltc

2005-10-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

ltc.
freaky, i think.

sigh.

oh well, still gotta go (:
and TRY.
hopefully i'll make it!

belay school just round the corner.

YELLOW

2005-10-15T14:09:00.000+08:00

YELLOW.

yay. yellow.
so, as promised...

suting + cel's yellow-themed present!
YAY (:
it was so cool cause everything in it was yellow.
right down to the BOX! (:

lalala.
thank you (: even though my birthday was one billion years ago...
heh.

ya ya,
yellow banana!
WHEE.

graduation day

2005-10-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

today's grad day for the sec 4's.
it was so sad.
i cried.
had to.

aye, why do they have to go?
i know, they can always come back again...
but it isn't the same.
i don't know if i'll feel they are still part of the school.
they are,
they always will be.

but in a different way.

cried for dajie,
for weisan,
for crystal,
for the pamellas,
for yu'an,
for kate,
for shalom,
for sze min,
for priscilla,
for rachel,
for janica,
for all the sec 4 PCs,
for all the sec 4 track seniors,
and
for all sec 4's.

YAY (:

2005-10-15T13:58:00.000+08:00

lalala.
after so many billion years...

i'm back!
muaha.

EXAMS are OVER (:
yay.

but still so busy.
ultra busy.
so it doesn't make a difference.
being a student deprives you of holidays.

blarhs.

my birthday!

2005-09-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

haha (:

my birthday's about to end in a few minutes time...
around forty.

today was great.
it was a CHEESE-Y day (:
imagine this!
cheese for dinner at an italian restaurant,
cheesecake..
and i added extra cheese to my cheese dinner (:
thankfully i didn't say cheese! when i took photos! (:
haha.

oh well, thanks everyone for your birthday wishes (:

fine la piggeh.
for the record, you're FIRST!
*clap clap clap*
haha.

YAY (:
i'm happy.

art!

2005-09-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

ART on my birthday?!
grr.

can't wait!

2005-09-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

exactly one hour and one minute left.

what do i do -
wait?!

outreach

2005-09-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

today's outreach was good.
i'm glad arica came along.
guess it's good for her.
all i can say is that 'i will pray for her'.
but many a times this sentence just becomes something we say and not do.
the message the other sunday on this really impacted me.
i've been thinking -

am i serious about my faith?

it's a difficult question to answer.
especially with so many complications going on around me.
it's difficult to find a meaning in life.

for today's outreach, i think the person that best portrays me is grace.
what do i really want in life?
why the same old routine everyday?
after a while, life just gets ~~boring~~ and i'm drifiting around aimlessly like a lost soul.
i used to think my life had so much meaning.
but i guess not anymore.
there must be more to it.
so i guess the answer is really Jesus.
what then, stopped me from raising my hand? i knew it in the back of my mind.
i wanted to.
but i didn't.
and i regret.
maybe i'm just not ready.

to put myself into the shoes of jeremy:
so what if i've built up on so much in life?
so what if i'm a prefect, a monitress or a leader?
so what if i have a perfect life?
does that mean anything?
my life doesn't depend on all that.
life is so fragile;
so hollow;
so unpredictable.
just like those styrofoam cups,
falling and toppling with just a mere push.
why?
i wish God would just speak to me.
i want to have that personal relationship we speak so much of.
somehow i just don't feel it.
i feel fake. why do i go to Church when i'm not even sure about my faith?

and who am i to judge others? - athalie you know what i mean.

sigh,
it's all too much to take in for one day.

i hope it's not too late-
God,
i raise my hand NOW.

amen.

its a choice.

2005-09-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

you know what, you're right -
it's a choice.

so i'm gonna make the right choice today.

i'm gonna smile my biggest smile (:

tagboard problem

2005-09-06T19:07:00.000+08:00

sorry y'all.
my tagboard's down ):

rahh

2005-09-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

rahh.

is it even worth holding on?
this is getting nowhere.
drifting around aimlessly.

it's about time i realised -
the time is near.

pissifying

2005-09-02T18:42:00.000+08:00

pissifying.
screw you all

~~all you freaks~~

so pissed i was almost driven to tears.
i'm glad y'all were shocked.
don't you dare test me.
cause you're going down.

and what the shit.
it was you!
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and all the other yous.

so much for the ~~trust~~.
and best friends? - yeah right. shit you.

don't believe the truth:
TRUST NO ONE

replies

2005-09-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

replies.

dajie: you take care too (:

felicia: haha. ok, will link you when i next have the time! (:

athalie: hah. why you change blog address? oh well ok. will change together with feli's (:

zl: hah. what survey? i thought it was over. haha (: whatever you think is nice will be good (:

DPH: hehe. no need to be so paiseh. just change can already. no big deal! (:

GOODGUY: hey you! (: there hasn't been much activity going on, eh? shall kill someone soon (:

banner painting!

2005-08-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

whee.
let's go banner painting again.
yes, we should.

it was... strangely fun!
haha.

and mingjin was funny. keep saying 'ya' all of a sudden.
and the stupid stars mann! can't paint properly.
that was, of course, not until the super pro evelyn with the secretary look came along to help us! haha, i still think painting with the left hand is cool!! (:

hah - secretary (:
ME?
nahh.
you're kidding, eh.
better be.
but you know what. i just realised. if i'm the secretary next time..
that means i'll be attached to evelyn! how cool! (:

oh, and i rmb how the 'great stones of cedar's courtyard' fell down from the sky like hailstones (: our VHPC was there ok! (: and boy, was she encouraging!

hehheh.
banner painting tmr.

don't forget.

numbed

2005-08-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'm NUMBED.

insulted!

2005-08-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

aye, kuala lumpur!!
time for me to whine lo (:
you always whine to me.

i still can't believe it!!!! )':
it's a total insult to my intelligence and originality and creativity!
how could they have created it before me!
hello!
i'm the inventor of such crap okay!!!
shit mann.

aye, just have to settle with M-A-N.
sigh..

i'm a fake.

2005-08-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

facading my way through;

everything you see is FAKE.

replies

2005-08-20T17:56:00.000+08:00

replies.

dajie: you takecare too. after just now, i think what you really need on monday is ONE BIG HUG (: love ya too!

GOODGUY: muahaha. thanks for your tag (: and oh, if you're really going to check out the blog, it's disgusting... haha. see what you can do about it, yah?

evisan: heehee (: hope you're doing well yourself.

names

2005-08-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

express cut! (:

kuala lumpur!

aesthetics studio!

haha.

i'm fine

2005-08-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

i'm fine people.
don't have to worry (:

thanks sherms!

2005-08-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

hehheh.
i know this was like one billion years ago.
but i still have to thank SHERMS! (:

whee.

if not, how could i still get 1333 for 2.4km? yay. haha.
thanks! (:

killings

2005-08-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

hah. after not killing for so many days, my hands were getting itchy.

therefore, citizens of peace, i'm glad to inform you that EUNICE - aka one of your ATP leaders - has died! muahahaha. *evil laughter*
i killed her in a dark alley. hehheh. in broad daylight! (:

how can it be dark and bright at the same time?! heh (:

GOOD GUY:
YOU'RE TOO LATE... (:

hehheh

2005-08-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

aiyah.
stupid retard la.
only make me jealous! )':
but i want to hear more tmr!! (: hehhheh.

replies

2005-08-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

replies.

dajie: no la. no one bully me. anyway, i've decided not to think about it anymore, yah? hehheh.

arica: yah. i'll find you sometime. when i have the time.. till then, just wait for my letter! haha.

debo: haha. yah. i changed again (:

yes!

2005-08-15T18:34:00.000+08:00

yes.
i'm a strong girl.
i have character.
i will not be bothered by their foolish words.

hang in there, elyssa.
it'll be over soon.

i shall not be pissed.

2005-08-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

i shall not be pissed.
i shall not be pissed.
i shall not be pissed.
i shall not bother.
i shall not bother.
i shall not bother.
let them be.
let them be.
let them be.

I SHALL NOT BE PISSED!

blarhs.

2005-08-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

i wanna dance my life away;
the journey ~~ends~~ here.

lalala

2005-08-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

haven't been online in a long time... haha.

didn't manage to blog about it. but. fop!
haha. next year i must go with anabella (: hehheh.

national day..
so sad.
the padang.
no suicide bombers!! boo.
ok, i'm saddistic.
but whatever.

pail

2005-08-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

PAIL;
don't worry.

i have my reasons.
i just can't tell (:

ahhh

2005-08-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

ahh.
finding a suitable blogskin is annoying.

bleah.

rain!

2005-07-31T22:14:00.000+08:00

i stand in the rain.
then i sit in front of the aircon.

so fun. so fun!

` whee

going bonkers-

sick!!

2005-07-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

cough cough cough

feel so sick.

i don't like to eat medicine!
and i won't.

dying me.

courtyard

2005-07-30T19:06:00.000+08:00

i want the COURTYARD!
it's mine.

dajie. so fun to be mean to. hehheh.
i suggest you start learning to ride a bike (:
or you could take singing classes from wanping!! i'm sure they don't cost much, she'll give you a discount! hehheh.
and i still can't believe the character excellence thing.
i laff! (:

tell me

2005-07-30T18:52:00.000+08:00

tell me it's the end.
tell it straight into my face.

cause i want to hear it.

whatever.

2005-07-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

happiness.
it's short-lived.

so i'm going back.

now,
who's gonna stop me from falling?

viral infection...

2005-07-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

ahh.
i'm still sick.
when will i ever recover?!
sheesh-

it's a viral infection.
my temperature fluctuates.
it goes like up and down for no reason.
could it be.
~~dengue fever?~~
hell no.

ahh, whatever.
tmr i'm not going to sch again.
or so i think.
have an MC...
but my lit test! it'll be capped! argh.
then i'll so fail lit.
this is shit.
being sick really sucks.

screw it-

sick!

2005-07-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

bahh-

being sick sucks.

i missed school today! )':
and i missed dajie, and piggeh and all my friends!

ahh. i missed guitar lesson and tjanting work!

BOO.

yay

2005-07-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING IS OKAY NOW.
AND I"M GLAD FOR THAT! (:

the past?

2005-07-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

oh, why does it feel so much like the past.
that feeling of depression.

tears well up in my eyes whenever i think about you.
why are you doing this to yourself?
you try to put on a brave front.
but this ain't working.
it isn't the way to solve a problem.

oh, just let the tears
wash it away...

ahhh!

2005-07-23T11:45:00.000+08:00

i can feel it.
it's getting stronger.
it's growing as each minute passes...
i can hardly hold on.
if i were to just fall, all will be lost.
it will reign in my life once more.
but i can't let that happen.

and i won't.

today won't be a good day anymore.
i just know it.
all the excitement.

it was just one moment of adversity,
and everything is gone.

i have to tell someone,
but who?

PC!! HELP!!

tears

2005-07-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

what else could i do but ~~cry~~
it hurts to see you this way.
it really does...

i wish i could do something.
but i'm useless.

so what if i ~~cried~~?
do you even care?
you just can't pick yourself up.
but i can tell you, crying for you will always be worth it.

bad day

2005-07-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

today was a bad day.
a very bad day.

i couldn't help it.
it was them.

i can feel it.
silently trying to creep back into my life.
what is my defence?
i am weak.
it is strong.
it will do whatever it must to conquer me, my army and ultimately myself.
i have to chase it away.
i need to fight it.
i know it's evil ways, it's trying to console me. it's pretending to be there, something i can fall back on.
but no.
it's a lie.

but it's ok.
i'll just keep everything to myself.

saturday!

2005-07-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes!

saturday's coming!

` WHEE!

then i can go swimming.
swim swim swim (:

oh bother, i hate IPW!

dot

2005-07-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

oh man, ytd was like so fun.
but i'm sorry.
it wasn't a happy day.
i'm sorry. i have to declare that...

sorry piggeh, if you were at a loss )':
and thanks dajie + weisan! (:
YAY dajie rules!!

congrats!

2005-07-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

congrats to all runners!

woots!
runners from CEDAR rock like no one's business!! (:

track & field rules!
YAY-

ahh. i screamed until my throat's sore... tmr have oral! argh. oh well. i don't care! - we showed the CEDAR spirit, loud and proud!!! (:
yawns. now so sleepy.

go cedar!!

2005-07-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

ahh, the spirit today at the stadium was great!! (:
although i'll have to admit that last year it was better. but that's cause the whole school went last year. anyhow,

GO CEDAR!!

'C' div - 3rd
'B' div - 2nd

hehe. so fun, so fun! (:
ahh, too bad i was so tired. cause last night went to airport to receive my cousin from canada!
`whee! (:

hurt

2005-07-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

today i was hurt.
i realised that i could trust no one.
except maybe that special group of them.
everyone else, they're just the same.
i guess this happens only when they're not 'forced' to not do it. maybe i can't blame them. you know. actually i don't. but it's so difficult to just not look. or worse, pretend i didn't see anything.

oh well. it's ok. i won't care.

not ready!

2005-07-16T20:32:00.000+08:00

bwahaha.
the blog isn't ready.. i haven't had the time to type in all the info.
bleah-

but i think the skin is so cute! (:

lalela

2005-07-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

lalela

it's past the witching hour.
muahahaha.

always me. why! argh. now i have to complete this stupid project. and WW! grr.

boo

2005-07-11T18:08:00.000+08:00

boo. i think the blogskin is like so weird.
argh. will change again when i have the time.

headache!

2005-07-11T17:14:00.000+08:00

stupid headache.
stupid headache.

my back is like hurting so much. it has caused my head to be pain too! argh. why don't i just fall sick. then i can just stay at home and rot. rather than having to go to school and still suffer this headache! lagging it around is so tiring. boo)':

anyway. i shan't use that as a reason for me to be unhappy. yes, it can't! (:
HAPPY (:

YES,
JOY is not the absence of trouble;
but the presence of Christ!

`whee!

june act

2005-06-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

june act '05
rocks

sigh

2005-06-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

if only you could understand me.
somehow you just don't.
you know, you can never tell what's on my mind.
is that supposed to be a good thing?
i wonder;

been worrying a lot for people.
heh. all the you's and stuff.
retard!
i haven't heard one darn thing from you.
sure hope you're ok.
can't wait for school. so i can be assured that you're really ok. doing fine and sort.

piggeh.
saw you the other day. came across as quite surprising. guess you were wrong after all. saying i wouldn't see you at all during the holidays, not even once. hehe! guess not.
but you were somehow different. being busy dog gone sure got to you. sheesh.

dajie.
hmm. hope you've been doing fine. haven't really heard much from you these days. you must be real busy mugging (: jiayou then!
i love you-

i know what it's like to be forgotten;

maybe

2005-06-21T09:21:00.000+08:00

maybe i'm just not good enough for you;
maybe i just don't wanna be like you

free me from this misery